michael

i have to see him again,
i'm starting to feel weak,
he's the only one who can save me,
i wanted to meet with him today,
my actions have stopped me once again,
oh michael,

i miss you,


quite terribly so.

focus.

i need to keep my mind off of friendships and relationships. i need to go back to school. back to reality. i need to get a good grade. i have decided to focus on getting into holy names.


i have decided to think for my future. i'm just a girl. i'm just an 8th grade girl. but i can make a difference


in my life.

.

i'm not important. i'm just the girlfriend.

lust vs. love

lust you regret.
love you dont.

i'm not being critical its true.

she's only drinking beer to "impress"

if only i could go back.

keegan nugent.
he would be my friend now if i went to school with him again.
i was so prejudice,
i stayed away and disliked
because everyone else did.
he was sweet,
just troubled.


i'm sorry keegan i hope you fix your addictions.

THIS IS WHAT I WANT

I WANT TO MAKE MY OWN FUCKING WEBSITE SO I CAN SELL THINGS I MAKE!!!! AND THEN I CAN DONATE 3/4 OF MY PROCEEDS TO A CHARITY FOR ABUSED FAMILYS!!!! THATS WHAT I FUCKING WANT TO DO! I DONT WANT TO GO TO SCHOOL! I WANT MR. MONAHAN! I WANT A NEW JOURNAL! I WANT AN EASEL SO I CAN PAINT MY FEELINGS, AND AN OLD FASHIONED TYPEWRITER SO I CAN MAKE MY BOOK! I WANT TO SAVE THE WORLD! I WANT TO MAKE-OUT WITH COLE! I WANT A DECENT FATHER. I WANT TO SHOW PEOPLE PAIN SO THEY KNOW BUT I DONT WANT TO HURT THEM! I WANT TO BE ABLE TO DO SOMETHING AND NOT BE ABLE! I WANT TO NOT WANT AND DO! BUT I CANT STOP! I WANT SO MUCH BUT MOST I WILL NEVER HAVE. CAUSE I DONT KNOW WHERE TO START! AND THEN THAT FRUSTRATES ME EVEN MORE AND I GET ON A RAMPAGE. AND THEN ONCE I'M IN A RAMPAGE I GET MY SHIT DONE! AND I GET IT DONE WELL!
OFF TO DO MY HOMEWORK!

-YOUR FUCKED UP FRIEND

i love my random thoughts :)

i should start a band called other people in may or maybe just other people but i like the way they both sound.