Wednesday, April 30, 2008
frida kahlo style
wood, blankets, comfort,
racing, lime, scattered, ropas.
relieved, azul, gris, hermana
sitting, thinking, tired eyes.
anxious, worried, anxiety,
about maron. no! no! no!
dust, hair, dirt, grime, peros.
poverty, no amor, spite, hope.
eyes, nails, boards, my heart,
rojo and weary.
en everything i see you.
racing, lime, scattered, ropas.
relieved, azul, gris, hermana
sitting, thinking, tired eyes.
anxious, worried, anxiety,
about maron. no! no! no!
dust, hair, dirt, grime, peros.
poverty, no amor, spite, hope.
eyes, nails, boards, my heart,
rojo and weary.
en everything i see you.
Tuesday, April 29, 2008
i cant believe it.
i saw my real life harold in a slick black 1960's VW 1500 variant. he was wearing black, and looked super cute. i cant believe i saw the man of my dreams and i'll never see him again. i only got to gape at him for tops 7 seconds, and he drove off.
i sigh when i think about it.
oh well, i'll live.
i sigh when i think about it.
oh well, i'll live.
Monday, April 28, 2008
TYLER.
yeah, we haven't really talked for a while, have we?
but i've been constantly checking my blog to see if you commented. i just recently got over that. i feel bad, because i was kind of obsessing over you. now that i think about it, im thinking, "yikes!"
sorry about that.
but i've been constantly checking my blog to see if you commented. i just recently got over that. i feel bad, because i was kind of obsessing over you. now that i think about it, im thinking, "yikes!"
sorry about that.
Sunday, April 27, 2008
NEW NEWS.
I SWITCHED ROOMS WITH MOM. AND NOW I SHARE A ROOM WITH MALLY. THIS IS REALLY HARD BECAUSE I HATE DECORATIVE STUFF, AND SHE LOVES IT. NOW SHE WANTS TO HANG UP HER STUPID MARILYN MONROE PICTURE, BUT SHE HATES THE IDEA OF HANGING UP A MIRROR.
WHO DOESN'T LIKE MIRRORS, FOR GOODNESS SAKE?
WHO DOESN'T LIKE MIRRORS, FOR GOODNESS SAKE?
Thursday, April 24, 2008
tori started a story before she left (on my typewriter).
"this story is not true. It is from the mind of a 14 yearold girl... Tori Baxter.
John was walking through his hometown. Bruised and beaten and bloody. People were staring at him and the rest of the confederate soldiers who stood by him. He walked drearerly through the town, waiting to reach his home.
There it was, the pretty little blue Cape Cod house with the white shutters. With his head held high he walked up the steps to the front door. Not knowing if he should knock, or just walk in, he hoped that Sally would remember him. With a little bit of a shimpish grin he knocked on the front door, and was surprised by the picture he saw.
There standing in the open doorway was Sally. Just as beautiful as she was the day he left to fight in the raging war, but now in stead of her cute little petite body he saw a big belly. He was stunned, speechless, and couldn't comprehend what had happened. The confusion faded and he was suddenly angry, she was pregnant. But with whose baby?"
John was walking through his hometown. Bruised and beaten and bloody. People were staring at him and the rest of the confederate soldiers who stood by him. He walked drearerly through the town, waiting to reach his home.
There it was, the pretty little blue Cape Cod house with the white shutters. With his head held high he walked up the steps to the front door. Not knowing if he should knock, or just walk in, he hoped that Sally would remember him. With a little bit of a shimpish grin he knocked on the front door, and was surprised by the picture he saw.
There standing in the open doorway was Sally. Just as beautiful as she was the day he left to fight in the raging war, but now in stead of her cute little petite body he saw a big belly. He was stunned, speechless, and couldn't comprehend what had happened. The confusion faded and he was suddenly angry, she was pregnant. But with whose baby?"
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
it happens a lot.
whenever im looking random things up, i always happen to come across people's blogs. and i always find the ones where someone has about 3 posts from 2 years ago. i think its totally lame when people start a blog and then just abandon it. well i say, have at least 5 posts before you do (if you leave your blog). if i ever stop having my blog, i cant even imagine how i would close it all up. knowing me, if blogspot was going to shut down or something, i would write down EVERYTHING i wrote in my journal. lol, it would probably take me HOURS, but i would do it anyways. i dont want to loose any of my trains of thought.
btw, i moved seats in scott's class today. scott sat me next to lainey (the prep). ewww.
i would rather sit next to abusive toru.
btw, i moved seats in scott's class today. scott sat me next to lainey (the prep). ewww.
i would rather sit next to abusive toru.
Tuesday, April 22, 2008
Sunday, April 20, 2008
isaac
is my crack sorbet. dont ask me what that means, because i have no clue myself. i had a dream about it though. i had a dream i was eating crack sorbet and isaac was with me and i said, "isaac, you are my crack sorbet."
weird, huh?
plus mom and me gave diva a bath today. she looks pretty hilarious when she's wet.
and yesterday i "worked out". i walked on the treadmil with my mom's highest high heels. phew! i respect those who wear stilletos everyday to work! i got the idea from that mariah carey commerical on mtv, and i wanted to try it. mom got mad at me afterwards, i quote, "missy! you're going to break the treadmil!" next time i do it, i'll make sure not to tell her i did again...
i bet it would be funny to catch me doing it, because i must look like a retard.
weird, huh?
plus mom and me gave diva a bath today. she looks pretty hilarious when she's wet.
and yesterday i "worked out". i walked on the treadmil with my mom's highest high heels. phew! i respect those who wear stilletos everyday to work! i got the idea from that mariah carey commerical on mtv, and i wanted to try it. mom got mad at me afterwards, i quote, "missy! you're going to break the treadmil!" next time i do it, i'll make sure not to tell her i did again...
i bet it would be funny to catch me doing it, because i must look like a retard.
Friday, April 18, 2008
OD! OD!
WARNING: OVER DOSE ON NUTELLA! MAY THROW UP! MAY THROW UP!
gosh i feel so sick! why do i do this to myself? but ohmygod! 5TH PERIOD WAS SO MUCH FREAKING FUN! LOL! i screwed off with stuart, cody, isaac, and clarry the WHOLE TIME! (cause there was a sub [the one who has vagina lips]) i wouldn't have got my name written down if CODY didn't lie and say i broke his pencil. lol stupid cody. now mr. scott is gonna get all pissy faced with me on monday. BUT WHO CARES, BECAUSE I HAD SO MUCH FUN!
funny highlight: stuart and isaac tried putting my bobby pins in their hair! lol! it was hilarious!
gosh i feel so sick! why do i do this to myself? but ohmygod! 5TH PERIOD WAS SO MUCH FREAKING FUN! LOL! i screwed off with stuart, cody, isaac, and clarry the WHOLE TIME! (cause there was a sub [the one who has vagina lips]) i wouldn't have got my name written down if CODY didn't lie and say i broke his pencil. lol stupid cody. now mr. scott is gonna get all pissy faced with me on monday. BUT WHO CARES, BECAUSE I HAD SO MUCH FUN!
funny highlight: stuart and isaac tried putting my bobby pins in their hair! lol! it was hilarious!
Thursday, April 17, 2008
GO TO:
poop.com
pee.com
bitch.com
hornydog.com
bitchplease.com
holdmypenis.com
gilf.com
marissa.com
NEVER GO TO MILF.COM!!!! MOST DISGUSTING SITE I'VE EVER SEEN!!!!
(i dont actually watch any of this, i find porn sites for fun)
pee.com
bitch.com
hornydog.com
bitchplease.com
holdmypenis.com
gilf.com
marissa.com
NEVER GO TO MILF.COM!!!! MOST DISGUSTING SITE I'VE EVER SEEN!!!!
(i dont actually watch any of this, i find porn sites for fun)
I HATE SCHOOL.
this is so bizzare, isaac is sticking up for me! does that make any sense at all? he's REALLY confusing me now. i didn't really think of anything when he waved to me during class, but now he's sticking up for me? now im suspicious. extremely suspicious.
i really like running off to parkwood and sitting in one of those benches and reflecting on my thoughts. but when im super pissed and angry at the world i want to be the only person in the playground. i dont like listening to little kids screaming and crying on the playground. i want to be all alone but i want someone to find me and just sit there and stare into nothing with me. EXCEPT PATRICK.
WHY WONT HE LEAVE ME FUCKING ALONE??? and his sister just ignores him! I WANT SOMEBODY TO KILL HIM! no, i dont really want him to die, but i do want somebody to tell him off.
BECAUSE HE'S DRIVING ME CRAZY!
stupid patrick doyle.
i really like running off to parkwood and sitting in one of those benches and reflecting on my thoughts. but when im super pissed and angry at the world i want to be the only person in the playground. i dont like listening to little kids screaming and crying on the playground. i want to be all alone but i want someone to find me and just sit there and stare into nothing with me. EXCEPT PATRICK.
WHY WONT HE LEAVE ME FUCKING ALONE??? and his sister just ignores him! I WANT SOMEBODY TO KILL HIM! no, i dont really want him to die, but i do want somebody to tell him off.
BECAUSE HE'S DRIVING ME CRAZY!
stupid patrick doyle.
Wednesday, April 16, 2008
Monday, April 14, 2008
fucking shit.
my dad believed me when i told him i was pregnant and how im getting married when i'm 16, but im a lesbian too. HE BELIEVED THAT! AND IM NOT EVEN JOKING! mally told me he was talking to lorrie about "something about missy" DIRECT QUOTE! IS HE FUCKING BLIND? DO I FUCKING LOOK LIKE IM FUCKING KNOCKED UP? a lesbian i can understand believing.
i am now debating if i should go along with it till he finds out himself. to experience the whole awkward lesbian talk and pregnant talk with his family.
thats going to be something special.
i am now debating if i should go along with it till he finds out himself. to experience the whole awkward lesbian talk and pregnant talk with his family.
thats going to be something special.
please save me from babysitting them!
im watching one of those old school star wars movies. its pretty intense (even if the creatures are incredibly fake looking, and i have no idea what's going on). boggie, austin (his hottie friend), and grandpa are coming back from florida tonight. mammy's getting ready to pick them up right now. mally and ella are making fun of me right now. lately its been REALLY bad, and whenever i get really upset my heart BPM goes up. i notice that, and then thats when i retaliate and get pissed at them. i think i forgot how to ignore them. or its like how the anti-biotics dont work anymore. If you dont use the antibiotics properly or long enough the bacteria wont all completely die and the strongest out of the bunch live and then reproduce. once the bacteria reproduce they're stronger and they resist completely against the antibiotics. mally and ella are like the bacteria who resist and learn from me ignoring them, so they now know what will make me irritated. follow? im really bad at explaining whats in my head, but thats basically how i think of it. i think of mally and ella as tiny little bacteria in my throat giving me strep.
anyways.
i hate how the teachers try and cram everything for the week right before wasl and then give us nothing during the testing. i would much rather have everything layed out evenly and have a tad bit of homework during the wasl days. elizabeth and i were just talking about that before gym today. i really want to go over to her house and watch sweeney todd, i'll have to go over the weekend. i wish i was like my cat. she ALWAYS smells good. its like her fur is naturally deodorised. that reminds me, today i left my gym clothes and shoes at home, so gym ended up being even more awkward than usual, and then we played team hand ball. (gosh i hate that game). i was goalie one game and there's this guy named dylan, and omigod he's like on freaking steroids, and he could be a professional hand ball player. so he's throwing the ball at 20 hundred miles per hour and im cringing every time the ball hits the goal. i bet it was pathetic to watch but oh well. afterwards edgar was like, "haha you could be a model for whenever the ball is about to hit you!" and then he starts grabbing his head like he's a model and is screaming like a girl, imitating me. i laughed, because it was pretty funny. i didn't realize what i was doing when i was hiding my face from the ball. i dont feel too bad about sucking at that game, because most of the girls do. i do better at dodgeball, and thats actually fun. i like to get in front really close to the middle line and just stand there without a ball in my hands and see how long it will take for someone to actually throw a ball at me. i have so much homework to do because i didn't finish all of mine last night (i went out shopping instead), but i got a dress!
anyways.
i hate how the teachers try and cram everything for the week right before wasl and then give us nothing during the testing. i would much rather have everything layed out evenly and have a tad bit of homework during the wasl days. elizabeth and i were just talking about that before gym today. i really want to go over to her house and watch sweeney todd, i'll have to go over the weekend. i wish i was like my cat. she ALWAYS smells good. its like her fur is naturally deodorised. that reminds me, today i left my gym clothes and shoes at home, so gym ended up being even more awkward than usual, and then we played team hand ball. (gosh i hate that game). i was goalie one game and there's this guy named dylan, and omigod he's like on freaking steroids, and he could be a professional hand ball player. so he's throwing the ball at 20 hundred miles per hour and im cringing every time the ball hits the goal. i bet it was pathetic to watch but oh well. afterwards edgar was like, "haha you could be a model for whenever the ball is about to hit you!" and then he starts grabbing his head like he's a model and is screaming like a girl, imitating me. i laughed, because it was pretty funny. i didn't realize what i was doing when i was hiding my face from the ball. i dont feel too bad about sucking at that game, because most of the girls do. i do better at dodgeball, and thats actually fun. i like to get in front really close to the middle line and just stand there without a ball in my hands and see how long it will take for someone to actually throw a ball at me. i have so much homework to do because i didn't finish all of mine last night (i went out shopping instead), but i got a dress!
Saturday, April 12, 2008
sometimes,
i like to pretend im joel mchale.
and watch random tv shows,
then make fun of the crazy stuff people do.
and watch random tv shows,
then make fun of the crazy stuff people do.
im cold now.
today was fun.
i think im socially awkward though.
but thats ok.
its just theres so much stuff i want to talk to him about, but when im actually with him, i think of nothing. and then i get pissed off with myself afterwards. and i was surprised how nervous i was about seeing him after SO long. lol and it was so weird when we tried to hug goodbye! it felt so out of place! and also the guy at the barne's & noble starbucks gave tyler two forks for his cupcake! i had a little bit, but it wasn't that great of a cupcake. (no offence tyler) i love the vegan chai ones from central market! those ones kick ass!
oh shit i have homework to do. ;[
i think im socially awkward though.
but thats ok.
its just theres so much stuff i want to talk to him about, but when im actually with him, i think of nothing. and then i get pissed off with myself afterwards. and i was surprised how nervous i was about seeing him after SO long. lol and it was so weird when we tried to hug goodbye! it felt so out of place! and also the guy at the barne's & noble starbucks gave tyler two forks for his cupcake! i had a little bit, but it wasn't that great of a cupcake. (no offence tyler) i love the vegan chai ones from central market! those ones kick ass!
oh shit i have homework to do. ;[
Friday, April 11, 2008
april 11.
im listening to the steve miller band and bright eyes
girl in a coma too.
diva's laying down next to me.
im txting tyler right now on my phone.
i have to pee but i dont wanna get up,
my stomach hurts from being overfilled with nutella.
i feel like a fat ass.
but i can run more freely now.
i went to majesta's today
i went in her jacuzzi (is that how you spell it?)
its so warm in there!
and majesta's 3 year old sister mya joined us.
she is so darn cute!
therefore today was pretty darn good.
even if i stuffed my face with pizza.
im going to be so sick tomorrow.
girl in a coma too.
diva's laying down next to me.
im txting tyler right now on my phone.
i have to pee but i dont wanna get up,
my stomach hurts from being overfilled with nutella.
i feel like a fat ass.
but i can run more freely now.
i went to majesta's today
i went in her jacuzzi (is that how you spell it?)
its so warm in there!
and majesta's 3 year old sister mya joined us.
she is so darn cute!
therefore today was pretty darn good.
even if i stuffed my face with pizza.
im going to be so sick tomorrow.
Thursday, April 10, 2008
today.
i can feel the weight holding me down when i run. its almost pathetic, but not quite. im still the "lesbian" at school. although toru's not calling me fat anymore. dumb asses. max still loves me. lol. aldin's still an ass. so is isaac. joonbo's nicer now. i was partner's with patrick today in badmitton (how the hell do you spell that?) he kept asking me so i just said yes. god i hate patrick. why cant he stop touching me? and it doesn't even matter if i yell at him or tell on him. he's so socialy awkward (even more than me) that he cant even get a clue (even if it fell from the sky, slapped him in the face, called him an idiot, and then shot up into his butt). today was ok though. i felt quiet. i talked to daniel on yahoo email messenger thing. lol gosh i had no clue how horny he was. he's pretty funny i like him. i honestly think i dont look like a lesbian. stupid cody. oh and did i tell you dylan (pothead) let me french braid his hair on the bus! he was complaining the whole time, but he sat really still for me (so i know he enjoyed it) haha! i love dylan. he's awesome. and i feel really bad because i've been neglecting my journal. ;[ i'll have to write in it soon.
also mr. scott and i are TIGHT now
also mr. scott and i are TIGHT now
Wednesday, April 9, 2008
i need to run.
i haven't for so long. i never run anymore. i used to run 2 or 3 times a week. and i was fit. i can feel myself get fatter and fatter daily. and it sucks.
people think im super insecure now because i was talking about how toru called me fat and then i was like i want to run. blah blah blah.
everyone's insecure.
but yeah, point is, i felt like a fat-ass already. so it wasn't like it was toru's fault.
although he IS still a jackass.
people think im super insecure now because i was talking about how toru called me fat and then i was like i want to run. blah blah blah.
everyone's insecure.
but yeah, point is, i felt like a fat-ass already. so it wasn't like it was toru's fault.
although he IS still a jackass.
Tuesday, April 8, 2008
too true.
i'm glad i never get what i want. cause if i did, i would be overwhelmed with all the stuff i had.
Monday, April 7, 2008
my trip.
the DC trip was WAY better than i thought it would be. and there was so much more flirting with boys than i thought i would even do. katie and i were total screw-offs the whole trip (it was freaking awesome). we even bought a leopard print thong at victoria's secret to give to the guys we were hanging out with! alas, one of the chaparones found it and took it away. (pity, i know.) i'll tell you all the guys we messed around with:
aldin
isaac
toru
william
joonbo
max
dennis
aldin, isaac, toru, and max are my favorites, although i kissed william. i have a crush on aldin. he's so freaking hot. aldin is total bang material, and has the nicest butt you've ever seen. as katie would say, "on a scale from 1 to 10 aldin's butt is a 12!" and its totally true. too bad he's a total dick. i let him lay inbetween my legs. but he called me a lesbian.
tyler called me while i was on the trip and i was talking to him for the first time in a long time. i love him. i think for the 8th grade graduation dance thing im going to invite him to be my date (if im allowed at einstein). i dont care if he'll have a girlfriend then. thats my plan and im going to stick to it for now. (even if he has no clue about it)
i got a haircut before the trip, its a pixie. its super short, the shortest its ever been. thats why everyone thinks im a lesbian now. oh well. i know im not, so thats all that matters.
conclusion:
the trip was fucking awesome. im sad its over.
aldin
isaac
toru
william
joonbo
max
dennis
aldin, isaac, toru, and max are my favorites, although i kissed william. i have a crush on aldin. he's so freaking hot. aldin is total bang material, and has the nicest butt you've ever seen. as katie would say, "on a scale from 1 to 10 aldin's butt is a 12!" and its totally true. too bad he's a total dick. i let him lay inbetween my legs. but he called me a lesbian.
tyler called me while i was on the trip and i was talking to him for the first time in a long time. i love him. i think for the 8th grade graduation dance thing im going to invite him to be my date (if im allowed at einstein). i dont care if he'll have a girlfriend then. thats my plan and im going to stick to it for now. (even if he has no clue about it)
i got a haircut before the trip, its a pixie. its super short, the shortest its ever been. thats why everyone thinks im a lesbian now. oh well. i know im not, so thats all that matters.
conclusion:
the trip was fucking awesome. im sad its over.
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