What is his deal? what is my deal? Why am i so mad at him all of a sudden? i dont know. I felt like i was replaced for a while, since he only talks to michelle, but i got over it. But now i'm feeling it again. Matt's replaced me too. He used to be nice and mean to me, but it was ok, because he balanced it out. Now he's just mean, and he always talks to michelley too. Would someone be a nice friend if they were mean? I dont know why i'm mad at tyler for this, i really dont. Poor tyler, he's so oblivious of whats right in front of him. Michelley welley is so nice, but somehow she bugs me, am i jealous? nope, i have nothing to be jealous of. Than what is that feeling inside my gut/heart? Why am i feeling this? Why do i dislike her like that? i have no reason too! I think tyler is obessed over her, but i think thats normal, its just he doesn't seem to have time for his other friends now. and i think thats wrong. Aren't i his friend? i thought i was, i guess i'm not to him anymore. I was just about to say something else, but i lost my train of thought since my sister interrupted me. damn it. Back to tyler, i dont know what i was going to say at all now, but it was important. It really sounds like i'm a jealous bitch, but i'm not jealous, but i may be a bitch. I dont know what to think anymore, i really dont. I'm kind of confused, and depressed right now. oh well.
and i hate stupid pet names like pooky bear, totally creepy, sorry.
i'm not having pms, either. i'm 100% sure.
do i have real friends? i think so, yeah, and if i dont, i could just go emo, and hang out with the druggies, thats where i supposedly belong now isn't it?
why am i so pissed? i dont know why! i'm freaking myself out, where is this anger coming from? why am i deciding to let it out on tyler? Is this my emotions that i have been bottling up for so long? that might be it. i dont know, i seem to be very vulnerable right now, and i even let misha hug me. thats saying something. what the hell is wrong with me? why am i doing this? i need someone to help me. fast.
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