i deleted it from my list of addictions.

im so fucking angry with myself.

how could i let it come to this?
how could i do this to myself?

ruining my life, ruining my chances in life.

i get addicted too easily.

now my grades have lowered from my lack of attention to them.

especially science, the class i cared most for. and now im in a critical situation. i could be kicked out of AP science. this is serious, so deadly serious. i would absolutely DIE if i had to go to standard 8th grade science.

i haven't felt sick like this for so long.



i feel like im going to throw up.




lord help me.



I, marissa chandler, will from now on, do my very best in school, i will not be distracted from anything [unless i have an excuse], and i absolutely will NOT have a boyfriend. period.



the end.