for realzies

1.i would absolutely die if he hated me (after all, he is pretty much the star of the show in my dreams).
2.mom and i shared a pretty big glass of watered down red wine (my mom doesn't like drinking water by itself) while watching Charlie Bartlett. and i have to say, Charlie Bartlett is just as good as Harold and Maude. ESPECIALLY since it has one of my favorite songs by cat stevens in it.
3.i'm doing pretty darn well at hiding from the sun.
4.i'm officially in at insight. and i'm officially STAYING HOME FOR MY FIRST YEAR AT HIGH SCHOOL! WOOT WOOT!
wait. hold the fucking phones (quote from charlie bartlett).

am i staying at home because i'm scared of what high school is all about? am i so scared of my stomach that i dont even want to show up at school?

nah.