now vs. then

i can feel myself mellowing by the minute.

its creepy.


and when i stare at a blank page for too long.

my mind freezes.


people i've known for so long seem like strangers.

and i know why.


one thing happening can change your life forever.

but it doesnt feel like it-

right now.


i'll think back to what seems long ago.

and i get so thankful i changed.