screw it

I think i might delete this blog and make a new one, one where no one can read my thoughts, and read all the terrible things i've done. Cause my thoughts are getting too tangled and deep to show everyone. And the cabre things i've done are too horrible to share to my friends. I did tell someone though, and i actually thought i could trust him with telling him what happened, because i thought he was my friend. Shouldn't you know the difference between something you share to the world, and something you just dont? Do you really have that low of respect for my feelings? I trusted you, and then you just wander off and tell everyone what i did. Why dont you just scream to the whole world, "MARISSA'S A FUCKING SLUT!!!" that would be less painful. And i dont even care if you think i'm over reacting. I just dont really care anymore. At least i know to learn from my mistakes, and i definitely wont make that mistake again. And now i wont ever tell him anything personal. i know now who i should really trust, and who is really someone i can talk to knowing they wont tell the world what i said.
i think i just need a break from everything, and just relax. i want to loose all contact to everyone from this messed-up world. i just want to leave. This is just too much for me right now.